I have been alive for 10,150 days today. It is strange to think that for 10150 days I have been breathing and making choices that lead me to where I am today. Today I can not look back at choices I have made but instead I have the choice to look forward to many choices to come. One day at a time I am becoming the person I can and want to be. Last week Michelle and I went to see the Lion King in 3D, and it was great! One scene that has been stuck in my head is when Rafiki comes to Simba all grown up and teaches him a lesson on life.
Adult Simba: Ow! Jeez, what was that for? (after hitting Simba in the head with a stick)
Rafiki: It doesn't matter. It's in the past.
Adult Simba: Yeah, but it still hurts.
Rafiki: Oh yes, the past can hurt. But the from way I see it, you can either run from it, or... learn from it.
It seems a little strange that I have watched that movie countless times and I never saw that scene like I did that night. I have been learning from my past for years and have even turned to face it in recent years but I think the point of going through my past is to learn from it and move on with the Todays that life gives me. What a gift it is to be able to choose the path that I walk upon each day. To be alive in this time in the world and in the culture I was born into is great.
I often think that I was born in the wrong time and place, that I would be more suited in a slower paced walk of life. Today I am sick and have been in bed most of the day, I have worked a long week and my body decided that it was time to take a rest. Its days like today that I wish for a slower life. Therefore, today I have decided to take it slower than I usually do. The real feat will be keeping a slower pace when I am not sick. The pace that is kept by people around me is astounding at times and it is cruel, I do not believe that we were meant to be that busy. Balancing time has never been my strong point but I shall try nonetheless.
I am going back to school in January and I am excited at the prospect. I have been trying to decide what I am going to major in as I have only completed some general classes thus far. The choices I am trying to decide between are English and IT. They could not be less related as majors and it is difficult to make the decision as I love both.
Its late... Night!
