Monday, July 20, 2009
New Start!
I have not had the opportunity to make any posts in the last while. I have been getting settled into the new job and life out here in Colorado. I am glad to be home and with my family. It is a great stress reliever to have familiar faces and caring friends around.
I have had the opportunity of getting to see my Grandpa get married 2 weekends ago. It was a great time despite the 110+ heat at the beautiful outdoor ceremony. I wish them the best of luck in this new adventure the are embarking upon! Eileen is going to have her hands full~ LOL Love you Grandpa!
My New job is exciting and I have much to learn in this field as I have never worked in it before. This is a challenge that I accept with open arms. I hope I do not regret it later.
My Sister Melissa, her son Jackson and I had a most excellent adventure road tripping to Saint George and back. On this trip my sister and I had many great hours of talk time. We talked about life, love and happiness, Struggles, gifts and experiences. I am truly grateful for the great older sister that I have! She is a blessing to my very existence. Along this Journey we talked about the path of life. She likened my explanation of the course of life to a "Choose your Own Adventure" book. I agreed with her at that time but it was not until later as I pondered that, that I had the opportunity to actually chew on that.
I think that we all have a basic outline of what our life is to be that is determined by a higher power. Along the way we have the opportunity to, at a crossroads in our life choose which path we are going to venture down. In this aspect life is like unto a "Choose your own adventure" book. Unfortunately we can not peek at the outcome before we choose that path, as I did when reading those books when a child. We have to determine the choice that we feel is best and read on, crossing our fingers that the bad guys wont get us in the end. The Wisdom and knowledge gained from previous choices are imperative to making the future choices from which the best outcomes are derived. We learn as we go. There are loop holes sometimes in life that take us back to what feels like a choice we had to make before, so do we choose the same choice and hope that the outcome is different? Or do we choose another path and hope that the outcome will lead us to yet another choice... This I am pondering today as I have many choices to make that I have found myself making in the past as well. The outcome of the choices I have made in the past have given me the opportunity to learn and grow immensely, so do I choose another path to see what it has to offer?
I have had the opportunity of getting to see my Grandpa get married 2 weekends ago. It was a great time despite the 110+ heat at the beautiful outdoor ceremony. I wish them the best of luck in this new adventure the are embarking upon! Eileen is going to have her hands full~ LOL Love you Grandpa!
My New job is exciting and I have much to learn in this field as I have never worked in it before. This is a challenge that I accept with open arms. I hope I do not regret it later.
My Sister Melissa, her son Jackson and I had a most excellent adventure road tripping to Saint George and back. On this trip my sister and I had many great hours of talk time. We talked about life, love and happiness, Struggles, gifts and experiences. I am truly grateful for the great older sister that I have! She is a blessing to my very existence. Along this Journey we talked about the path of life. She likened my explanation of the course of life to a "Choose your Own Adventure" book. I agreed with her at that time but it was not until later as I pondered that, that I had the opportunity to actually chew on that.
I think that we all have a basic outline of what our life is to be that is determined by a higher power. Along the way we have the opportunity to, at a crossroads in our life choose which path we are going to venture down. In this aspect life is like unto a "Choose your own adventure" book. Unfortunately we can not peek at the outcome before we choose that path, as I did when reading those books when a child. We have to determine the choice that we feel is best and read on, crossing our fingers that the bad guys wont get us in the end. The Wisdom and knowledge gained from previous choices are imperative to making the future choices from which the best outcomes are derived. We learn as we go. There are loop holes sometimes in life that take us back to what feels like a choice we had to make before, so do we choose the same choice and hope that the outcome is different? Or do we choose another path and hope that the outcome will lead us to yet another choice... This I am pondering today as I have many choices to make that I have found myself making in the past as well. The outcome of the choices I have made in the past have given me the opportunity to learn and grow immensely, so do I choose another path to see what it has to offer?
Friday, June 5, 2009
Knowledge is Power
Knowing is half the battle right? I think not. It seems as though the knowledge of other people and their feelings can be used to inflict pain and suffering. So why? Why would someone use the intimate knowledge of someone to bring suffering? Why take the time to learn about someone and I dare say learn to love them, just to turn around and stab them in the back? People open themselves up to different levels, some are closed off and put up walls. When these people open up to someone that they feel that they can trust its a great big deal to them. Can you imagine that some people can actually betray that trust and hurt them anyway? It may not be so bad when its not done intentionally, but that is not what I am talking about. This is a crime of anger in the heat of a moment, the hurtful things that are said but not thought about. That damn brain to mouth filter disabled in the blindness of the moment. I think that the proper phrase is not "knowing is half the battle", but instead "Knowledge is Power".
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Communication Device
Without voice would I be able to speak? I feel that I communicate fairly well and efficiently, but could I make my feeling known with just body language and touch. Words are powerful, they can be used for hurt and for pleasure. I see and hear people communicating every day and I feel that words are used to often for negativity. So, would I do more good or harm with my words if I truly realized the impact of my words on others. Anyone that knows me knows I like to talk. I enjoy the freedom we have to openly share how we feel about anything. Words are powerful. I think that too often we pass up the opportunity to communicate in ways other than with words.
Body language is one of the sometimes unconscious ways that we communicate. I recently spent an entire evening noticing the body language of myself and another person. A lot can be said in a simple gesture or look, it can say "I am uncomfortable", or it can say "I feel at home here". In the time I spent watching the affects of body language I learned that it is to powerful. Body language can stimulate feeling and make moments in life have meaning and a certain intensity that its not stimulated other wise.
Touch is communicating but at a different level. Touch is sometimes a way to say things that words can not fathom. times that I have felt more in touch than I could have in words have been many. I remember one time in particular that the touch of a person whom I loved very much was a feeling of closure and moving on unlike words could have even portrayed. The last touch of life can be one that you feel long after that life has expired. I will always remember the last time I had the honor of touching my Grandmother. I was not alone in the room but the moment was mine alone and it created a great feeling of love and the honor of being her grand daughter.
I have been moved countless times by touch. the touch of a friend, the touch of a lover, the touch of a stranger. some are gentle and others intense. Touch is powerful.
All of these are ways to communicate, but as much as I like the others I have a special liking for voice.
Body language is one of the sometimes unconscious ways that we communicate. I recently spent an entire evening noticing the body language of myself and another person. A lot can be said in a simple gesture or look, it can say "I am uncomfortable", or it can say "I feel at home here". In the time I spent watching the affects of body language I learned that it is to powerful. Body language can stimulate feeling and make moments in life have meaning and a certain intensity that its not stimulated other wise.
Touch is communicating but at a different level. Touch is sometimes a way to say things that words can not fathom. times that I have felt more in touch than I could have in words have been many. I remember one time in particular that the touch of a person whom I loved very much was a feeling of closure and moving on unlike words could have even portrayed. The last touch of life can be one that you feel long after that life has expired. I will always remember the last time I had the honor of touching my Grandmother. I was not alone in the room but the moment was mine alone and it created a great feeling of love and the honor of being her grand daughter.
I have been moved countless times by touch. the touch of a friend, the touch of a lover, the touch of a stranger. some are gentle and others intense. Touch is powerful.
All of these are ways to communicate, but as much as I like the others I have a special liking for voice.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Damsel in Distress, your classic D.I.D.
The battle of the damsel and the dragon moves onward… At times I find myself wondering whether I am the damsel or the dragon. Is that burning inside of me the fire waiting to escape my lips? Is it the burning of a passion that has yet to be released? Or is it the unexplained pain in the form of fire burning from within.
On the other hand it could be that I am the damsel and I feel the burning inside, the burning of fear and the unknown. Do I fear the dragon with its tremendous ferocity as it chases me toward the destiny that I have yet to understand? Is that dragon the force that moves me forward or holds me back paralyzed by the thought of the grips of its talons?
I know that in the herculean time there was a hero who would come and help the damsel in distress by obliterating the opponent and taking her in his arms to safety. Is that so in the modern day? Do I wait for that herculean hero and let him sweep me off my feet? Does that happen anymore? Or perhaps I know the answer and I have only to rely on that God that I know to guide me as I battle the dragon. I have the tools and the know how to get through this and slay the dragon. But in that case I could be neither the damsel nor the dragon.
I feel as though I am both at times. I guess that is the complexity that leads me to the first questions, Am I the fire of the dragon, or the victim of the ferocious beast?
On the other hand it could be that I am the damsel and I feel the burning inside, the burning of fear and the unknown. Do I fear the dragon with its tremendous ferocity as it chases me toward the destiny that I have yet to understand? Is that dragon the force that moves me forward or holds me back paralyzed by the thought of the grips of its talons?
I know that in the herculean time there was a hero who would come and help the damsel in distress by obliterating the opponent and taking her in his arms to safety. Is that so in the modern day? Do I wait for that herculean hero and let him sweep me off my feet? Does that happen anymore? Or perhaps I know the answer and I have only to rely on that God that I know to guide me as I battle the dragon. I have the tools and the know how to get through this and slay the dragon. But in that case I could be neither the damsel nor the dragon.
I feel as though I am both at times. I guess that is the complexity that leads me to the first questions, Am I the fire of the dragon, or the victim of the ferocious beast?
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Families are the blessings that make the world go round. I have had the time to reflect in the last few months on the affect of families. They are there when you need them, even if at a distance. They can make you laugh or cry with a single word or phrase. Its amazing the bond that you feel to them. I have been living with 2 of my family members for a few months now and I have learned to love them in a way that I have not had the chance to before.
I live about 500 miles away from the bulk of my family. I have the opportunity to see them on occasion and I am grateful for that. They are a great comfort to me and I learn from them as I can and love to hear of their growth.
Family is a great strength and a center point of comfort. Thank God for that!
Friday, May 29, 2009
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